|LJ doesn't like me, or something.
||[Aug. 28th, 2004|03:51 am]
|||||Suga Suga By: Baby Bash||]|
It's true, every time I try to update the system is down or something. I usually can only update at night, since I'm busy being poked by hospital people during the day. Joy.
Not much has happened here. Maria had visited me a bunch of times. God I love her. Oh, Miguel is back in town for who knows how long. He stopped by my room after seeing his mother one evening. All we really talked about was Maria. I still love him, but I'm not going to put up with him.
The hospital is so quiet at night. I find that funny, since so many people are in it. Usually when it's so quiet I tend to think about stuff. My latest thoughts are mostly about the direction of my life. I was thinking about going back to college. I don't know what for yet, but right now that's not a problem. I've only completed one semester, so there's plenty of general classes I can take. Plus, I wouldn't go till the spring at the earliest. And, I could only really go part time. It would be nice, I think. I don't know. I want to make myself a better person, and not just for myself. I want Maria to see that her mom is successful. I want her to see me as a professional, to know that she can be just like me and not have it be a bad thing. Man, there is so much I want to do. I'm just not sure where to start. I guess just one day at a time.
I know when I get out of here, I'm going to take Maria to the park every single day. I can't take it anymore, just sitting all day. I'm not going to push anything, it's just I want to get better as fast as I can. It'll be nice to walk again.
Ok, that's enough self reflection for now. I'm off to read everyone else's journal. :)